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I really should stop planning my weight loss and instead just get down to it. No more excuses, no more exceptions, no more tomorrows. Its as of today, its as of right now. One good choice at a time coupled with patience will get me there. Some days its going so suck, some days I will be tempted to binge but I’ve got to remember, that temporary moment of satisfaction I get as I eat the first few bites will only bring days of dissatisfaction. It’s just not worth it. The hard work and disciple will pay off in the end, that’s a guarantee.
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Okay world, here’s the deal of steal. In 3 months and 19 days, I’m going to be traveling thousands of miles to see my special someone. It’s going to be 6 months since we last saw each other, and not only that but I’m going to be meeting the friends for the first time, possibly the mother, father, dog, local barman, local hobos, the exs… the lot..and we all know about first imressions…soooo..I’ve got to look hot, not just hot, I mean I gosta look hawwwwwt!! you know what I mean….?
So people, lets get down to business. It’s goal setting time:
Total weight loss goal till February 1st 2012: 10 kgs / 22 pounds
I just want to look good and feel good when we get intimate with my favorite person. Help me out tumbl bees! Help me stay on track!
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I don’t feel comfortable in my jeans anymore. I can’t bear the sight of my own reflection. The worst part of the morning is waking up and feeling fat as I pull on my clothes. None of my clothes look good on me anymore. I dodge all photos. I cringe when I see myself in pictures. I dread to see what I look like when I get e-mails from facebook telling me I’ve been tagged in a photo. I can’t stand it when people touch me. When a guy hits on me I get suspicious. My self consciousness stops me from doing things that I want to do. I hate the person that I am, I really don’t feel beautiful anymore and completely understand why people would think the same…this does seem like a high price to pay for putting on 8 kgs.
I don’t care what people say, Kate Moss is right, nothing tastes as good as being skinny does. I don’t care what you say, being over weight is not beautiful. It’s not beautiful and it’s not healthy. But you know what, it’s okay because we can all, if we want to, be thin, the choice is ours. We decide what goes into our bodies and we decide how active we are.
A little over 2 years ago, I used to be lean and fit. I was meticulous about what went into my body. I loved myself by giving my body only beautiful and nourishing foods. I worked out for 2 hrs daily. I felt good, I lived my life with smiles and colours. Then, I changed countries, changed environments and changed habits. Theres not one day that goes by where I don’t hate myself for letting myself get to where I am now. I know, it’s only 8 kgs, but still, I seem to have a hard time forgiving myself and moving on. I now fail because I lack patience with the process of getting back to the old me. I get down when I realise I cant do half of what I used to to in the gym 2 years ago. I get down, and when I’m down I feel like there is no way of getting out. I know, it seems a little excessive and over the top, but I can’t believe that I am at square one again. I promised myself I’d never be here again, yet here I am, hating all over again.
So, I have decided to blog. Everyone does this, and now this includes me. I have a goal. I have a plan. Finally I have something to work towards. Now let the process to thinner peace and self acceptance and my best life begin. I’ll be posting all my goals on another post. Follow me and follow my journey. Let your story inspire me, and let mine inspire you. Lets do this together. Skype, tumblr, write to me and tell me about your story.
peace.
